Pfffft.

What’s with Christmas and forgiveness? I mean, what’s the pseudo-birth of Christ “the savior” got to do with clemency and pardon and me forgetting all the horrid and painful things somebody has done to me? Okay, so people are all cheerful and hearts are overwhelming with happiness and everybody’s in the mood to celebrate and be kind to one another brought about by the holiday’s spirit. People are smiling even to strangers, sharing stuff especially to the needy and enemies are starting to shake hands. But would I expose myself and be vulnerable to such “spirit?” NO, I am not getting carried away. But I am not here to spoil your Christmas and convince you people to think and feel the same way as I do. I’m trying to say something here because a few days ago, an old “friend” sent me a message sounding all so jolly and animated. As if he (or she) hasn’t done anything beyond the pale to me. This person glaringly sabotaged what friendship is all about and fouled me in all sort of ways, something a normal person won’t easily forget. I will not go through the entire story because the pain I experienced then was rather intolerable. I am only a masochist in bed (ehhehehe). Anyway, I tried cutting off every possible contact with this person to protect myself from getting all bruised up again and for me to forget. Long story. And then now, it’s Christmas so he wishes me well daw?! Coz it’s Christmas? Nyah! Haler? A friendster message won’t seal anything kahit pa you send me all the smiles in cyberspace.

I may sound all bitter again amidst the season’s intense happiness but at least my feet are still safe on the ground. But let’s say I make amends with an enemy for christmas’ sake. Then what comes next in February?      

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