HAWSHAW

October 8th, 2008

ipakita mo mukha mo bago ka magsasa-satsat dyan.


kung may sasabihin ka, gamitin mo sarili mong profile. hindi ka na high school, mah men. at lalong hindi ka chix.

kung nasanay ka sa papuri ng mga tao, patayin mo na lahat ng nakapalibot sayo kasi mga sinungaling pala sila.

kung ikaw ang epitomy ng cool, aba, wala na nga talagang pag-asa ang pilipinas. maghurugot na kita.

and if not liking you would make me a crab, ok, CRAB AKO. my pleasure. ako na ang pinaka masayang crab.

haha!

I’M SICK OF NOT HAVING THE COURAGE TO BE AN ABSOLUTE NOBODY.

October 2nd, 2008

a dialogue i really love between Franny and Lane in JD Salinger’s book “Franny and Zooey”

Franny: All i know is i’m losing my mind, i’m just sick of ego, ego, ego. my own and everybody else’s. i’m sick of everybody that wants to get somewhere, do something distinguished and all, be somebody interesting. it’s disgusting! it is, it is. i don’t care what anybody says.

Lane: you sure you’re just not afraid of competing? i dont know too much about it, but i’d lay odds a good psychoanalyst - i mean a really competent one - would probably take that statement…

Franny: i’m not afraid to compete. it’s just the opposite. dont you see that? i’m afraid i will compete - that’s what scares me. that’s why i quit the Theater department. just because i’m so horribly conditioned to accept everybody else’s values, and just because i like applause and people to rave about me, doesnt make it right. i’m ashamed of it. i’m sick of it. I’M SICK OF NOT HAVING THE COURAGE TO BE AN ABSOLUTE NOBODY. i’m sick of myself and everybody else that wants to make some kind of a splash.

** oh yes, i’m sick of people trying to prove something to everybody. Trying to become something big or be different and sound brilliant and be crazy and be beautiful and all that pretentions. And i mostly hate myself for being one at times.