Xmas and stuff

I don’t know but i’m smelling something pleasant this coming christmas. I mean PLEASANT, as in positive, “spirit of christmas” feeling and that, I don’t want to have ruined. Because not always do I have this un-cynical, throbbing gut for something that I actually look forward to. See, I always find fault in every “good” I encounter, that’s a virus I acquired that infected me ever since I can’t remember and nothing seems to cure it. Not even love, not even a blooming love life and especially not Christmas that I once deemed out of stupor was a capitalistic scheme fashioned by Hallmark corporation.

Sometimes, when friends introduce me to someone, I always have motors running and grinding in my head that creates theories and formulate judgment within the few seconds we shake hands or say “hi.” If friends tell me I’m too judgmental, I always smirk and shrug and say, YOU’LL SEE. And i’m glad I’m right most of the time. It’s like I have this radar that tells me who’s faking it and who’s sincere and who’s up to no good.

So anyway, if you ask me, what’s giving me this vibrant, positive feeling for Christmas 2008? I actually cannot give you a specific answer. I just feel good about it and that’s worth writing down since I don’t get too chummy and cheesy about celebrations and occasions and stuff.

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